mediocrity

i feel mediocre

i dont think i'm cut out to lock heads with the corporate machine.
not that i want to in any case. but more like i need money, money to survive, to provide for others in my care, etc.

seems like an age ago when i said i'd be content with what i have.
it's not that i'm not content with what i have. more the realisation that im not content with what i dont have.

and the damn back is acting up again.

bah.