Sunday, October 31, 2004

Mr Walker and Mr Bleu.

Johnny, Marty and me were having a conversation.
Both of them were trying to convince me that the cup is half empty.
I argue that the cup is half full.

We were all correct.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

Restless Heart

The road I have travelled on
is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
that never quite came true
When all of my hopes were dying
her love kept me trying
She doesn't have to hide
the pain that she's been through

When she cries at night
and she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide all the fears she feels inside
so I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

She's always been there for me
whenever I'm falling
When nobody else believed
she'd be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
just once I like to make it
Then the tears of joy
will fill her loving eyes

When she cries at night
and she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide all the fears she feels inside
so I pray this time I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries

Friday, October 29, 2004






i feel small.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Theres a porcupine on my ceiling

All the jagged edges,
join sweetly to display
the promise of fulfillment,
at the close of my day.

Sitting calmly above me,
dressed in shades of gray,
this being so unseeming,
to show me there's a way.

To look back at myself,
with my own blurry eyes,
'cos the porcupine on my ceiling,
sees through my disguise.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Inexplicable Haste

Ever had the feeling you were stuck in one place and the world is just racing by you?

And all you can do is make a vague attempt to catch up? But everytime you think you've got a grip on reality, you feel like like your the lead actor in a bad sitcom.

Even the roadmap that you've got planned in your head doesnt seem to be a plan of attack but rather a connect-the-dots thing with no numbers.

Look to the constants. What are the constants?

Constants, real or imagined, wherever you are.. Thank you

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Charles's fermented, roast, shelled, and ground cacao seeds building in which goods are manufactureded

Tim + Roald + Johnny

good combination no?

Thursday, October 21, 2004

I wanna go here...

Midway hawkers calling
'Try your luck with me'
Merry-go-round wheezing
The same old melody
A thousand ten cent wonders
Who could ask for more
A pocketful of silver
The key to heaven's door

Lakeside Park
Willows in the breeze
Lakeside Park
So many memories
Laughing rides
Midway lights
Shining stars on summer nights

Days of barefoot freedom
Racing with the waves
Nights of starlit secrets
Crackling driftwood flames
Drinking by the lighthouse
Smoking on the pier
Still we saw the magic
Was fading every year

Everyone would gather
On the twenty-fourth of May
Sitting in the sand
To watch the fireworks display
Dancing fires on the beach
Singing songs together...
Though it's just a memory
Some memories last forever

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

This is what I call customer support!

Wow folks, its not often that i'm forced to deal with customer support.

But here's the deal...

while surfing the net for more information about the Brian May Red Special, I came across the website of a company that makes replicas.

So i thought awesome, and i went to their website to check up the details and see if there's a local dealership. needless to say i couldnt find out much info from the website. it's one of those sites that are basically a online catalogue, but not much else.

so i emailed the company. and guess what. less than 12 hours later i get a response.
AND i get a response from the BOSS of the company!

man that's awesome!!

the company : Dillion Guitars (Makers of Replica instruments and variations of classing instruments)
the website :
the boss : John Dillion
the happy customer : Me

some of their guitars are getting FIRST rate reviews over at
Harmony Central

instruments are korean/vietnam made. this requires further investigation!

happy tuesday y'all

Monday, October 18, 2004

giving up

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

Stiffer penalties for animal abusers.

a year in jail and a $10000 fine is not enough.

we were made to take care of all the beasts beneath us.
destroying/injuring/harming them is sick.

i'm upset with people.

Sunday, October 17, 2004


welcome to my nightmare

i'm going to burn...

pull my finger

Saturday, October 16, 2004


nuff said'

well, here's a few links about the show:
Destino @ IMDB

destino @ animagic


Apprently this is how i scored on the text that shu did.

The Seven Intelligence Areas

Linguistic: 11

Logical-Mathematical: 6

Spatial: 5

Bodily-Kinesthetic: 9

Musical: 11

Interpersonal: 5

Intrapersonal: 4

A Short Definition of your Highest Score

Linguistic - the ability to use language to describe events, to build trust and rapport, to develop logical arguments and use rhetoric, or to be expressive and metaphoric. Possible vocations that use linguistic intelligence include journalism, administrator, contractor, salesperson, clergy, counselors, lawyers, professor, philosopher, playwright, poet, advertising copywriter and novelist.

Musical - the ability to understand and develop musical technique, to respond emotionally to music and to work together to use music to meet the needs of others, to interpret musical forms and ideas, and to create imaginative and expressive performances and compositions. Possible vocations that use the musical intelligence include technician, music teacher, instrument maker, choral, band, and orchestral performer or conductor, music critic, aficionado, music collector, composer, conductor, and individual or small group performer.

wat am i doing in software development?

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Where's Elwood when you need him

funny funny funny.

next thing you know, we'll get an aged smurf actor being booked for posession of marijuana

but only one man should play elvis.. bruce campbell.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004


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Extroversion |||||||||||||||||| 52%
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Morality |||||||||||||||||| 54%
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Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 56%
Anxiety |||||| 18%
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Depression ||||||||||||||| 50%
Self-Consciousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 62%
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Artistic Interests ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Introspection ||||||||| 30%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||||| 58%
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And why I dont' eat bananas

visual metaphors.

Monday, October 11, 2004

Ka'el son of Jor'el

Superman is dead.


Friday, October 08, 2004

I am the story teller

I deal better with fiction than fact,
b'cos my imagination is the canvas,
and my heart is the painter.

I draw circles made from clouds,
and sing songs that only I hear.
They disappear when I open my eyes.

I see pictures in the sand,
of knights, maidens and the gentlest souls.
But only in my eyes do they see.

I hear whispers in the static,
of angels, demons and those in between,
caught up in living in my dream.

Im my tales i am bigger,
and my eagerness apparent
But I am the story teller, telling stories only I believe

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Rodney stops running

Legendary funny man.

people will remeber him for his crack standup routines and his roles in caddyshack and natural born killers. sum41 spoofed his class act dive.

Mebbe his epitaph will read :
rodney d.
honest/hardworking/happy and funny

thats 3 things i'd like to achieve.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

My heart has joined the Thousand, for my friend stopped running today

This is a beautiful quote.

richard adams, author of watership down, a book about rabbits, knew just as much about people as he did rabbits

i hope that the people i hold dear can say this when i stop running.

Monday, October 04, 2004

John and the dolls said

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah your bleed just to know you’re alive
And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything ‘s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

and i'm inclined to agree

Saturday, October 02, 2004


even with a 3 week cough, saturday is good.

let me add on to my thoughts about breasts:

breasts arent everything, granted that they are sometimes the most distracting, but they arent everything

deep soulful, piercing eyes, a bright smile and the back of the neck are also very important! Witty banter and the ability to impart wisdom and cheekinees,

but i think the most important thing, is that a person love who they are.
when you can do that, its a lot easier to be loved, or to allow your self to be loved.

Everyone is a work in progress.

contract count : 3 / 52 weeks